i used to talk with honest conviction

eh hi all
oh well
i just want to say
ive been a sucker these few days
or weeks

ive been Dao
ive been mean
ive been unreasonable
ive been irresponsible
sorry

i mean, i just look at the things that yall have done for me
and all the bad stuff ive given in return
i just feel so remorseful
(you all wait for me to finish training, and i let you all down cause i couldnt go etc.)
cause i think ive been taking you all for granted
not caring about yall feelings
thinking that yall will always be there
ive been mistreating yall
what with me childish emo states
and self-centered stupid actions
ive been SO STUPID

and this week ive reflected more often
and realised that you all dont deserve to get this crap
and ive just been a divisive influence in the group
im dragging you all down

you all are such a great bunch of people
in your very own ways, you have special meanings to me
i wont give these friendships up for nothing
honestly,
i dont care,
i love you all

so all i want to say is that
"i am so so sorry"
please do accept this apology
cause id hate myself if you dont
please.

and i promise i will try to change.
start over.


im sorry, really sorry for all the stupid things ive done